I have so so much love for my friends right now. They didn’t do anything special. I don’t know. They are just amazing people individually.
I can see so much hidden pain and suffering from my closest friends. Literally, my 4 best friends are the ones that are having the most trouble and all I can do is stand there and listen. I’m not a good advice giver or I’m not a good conversationalist in general. I know being there for them is good enough, but I just want to ease them from the pain. Seeing them in pain causes pain to me because I know how that feels.
I just want it all to go away.
I wish things were back to the way they were. Where both of us can function normally. Where there is no drama. Where we can all hang out again without it being tense and awkward in some situations.
No more sad Arby, No more sad Arby,No more sad Arby, No more sad Arby,No more sad Arby, No more sad Arby,No more sad Arby, No more sad Arby,No more sad Arby, No more sad Arby,No more sad Arby, No more sad Arby,
best people to spend New York with. I love you guys a lot <3
You going to get better. I swear to you, you are.
if only this were real.
(via arbyinawhiteworld)
I finally figured out some of my problems. It feels so good. I feel so much better, but no where near where I was.
It feels like I’m faking my emotions. One minute I’m on the floor shaking and bawling my eyes out, then another minute I’m happily talking to people. What is going on. Am I faking them? I don’t even know at this point.
